One day left...

Hmm... there is only one day left in 2008. Tomorrow. December 31st. I cannot believe that 2008 is over. The holidays / this time of year is so emotional for me. I am working very hard to keep a good attitude and be thankful. And I am. It is also a time of lonliness for me. I am working on not letting that get me down, but it does sometimes. I was in a funk for the past couple of days. I am feeling a lot better now. It seems that it is so easy to forget about things that are important when one is feeling down. Maybe it is ok to feel down too. Sometimes I feel guilty for not "being" the way that "I should be". My tree is still up and I am still thankful. I just wish that I had someone to share it with.
Lonliness is a different kind of feeling. For me, it is not complaining. It is more wanting to share what is good in my life with someone. Doing "life" with someone. I have my doggy and I love him dearly. I am really thankful for him. He is my family. He is a good boy. He is sleeping right now in the other room. He puts himself to bed when he is tired. It is really cute.
Maybe next year, Cota and I will have a special someone with us at Christmas and New Years....?? A someone that loves us and wants to be with us. Someone who shows us affection and love in a way that we can feel.
I am looking forward to the "fresh start" on Thursday! I love Jan.1st. Anything seems possible... funny...thinking about this again. Why do we need a "day" to give us permission and hope for a fresh start. I guess every day can be... right? Well, of course right! God gives us a fresh start anytime we like. Maybe there is comfort in knowing that others are feeling the same way on the day. And there is something fun and official about Jan.1st. I really want 2009 to be great. For me, my family and my friends. I will be living in a new city, hopefully make some new friends and reach some of my important goals.